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ranmatardis
24 August 2012 @ 12:15 pm
The beat goes on and on another week down the crapper and soon to follow it another summer season. Never mind the 80 degree weather will last into November or perhaps December. Pools are closed by the calendar but my pool will remain open.

Oh For those who do not know have returned to Caledon getting back my old lots in Caledon II. Have lots of prims open so it is safe for the overfly. Well nothing more to report.
 
 
ranmatardis
13 August 2012 @ 01:10 pm
Sorry guys I do not believe a word of your articles. If you have to lie do a better job of it. The more you make of this senior citizen the more important he becomes. Guys did a real nice job of promoting Chicken sales. I went there myself and it is very yummy. I can not stand KFC, Burger King, etc. Only reason do not eat more is because they will make me fat. Again I do not mix dinner and politics. It is my right to eat what I choose and saying that if he or his buddies are on TV *winks* it is time to change the channel.
 
 
Current Mood: boredbored
 
 
ranmatardis
09 July 2012 @ 03:18 pm
Been almost a year since my last entry, work, more work a "new" house at least to me. A nice pool to swim in without clothing ;) You are out of luck gents, no pics are available. Got 2 houses in the CDS and I should have one in Caledon.
 
 
ranmatardis
28 July 2011 @ 12:20 pm
After a long time am back on the job :) It is nice to be back home and working. Got home about 2:30am on Wednesday morning.
While all of the flights were late due to weather the Airline people were GREAT! So fly UAL!
 
 
ranmatardis
17 June 2011 @ 10:32 am
There is not a day I do not think of my dead spouse. I dreamed of him returning and was so happy. Only to wake up by the day to the fact he is gone. These days I am lacking a clear purpose for doing anything. I go day by lonely day surrounded by people that do not care about me. I go home to an empty house. It is not very pleasant and sometimes feel buried in my grief as it is threatening to smother me.
 
 
 
ranmatardis
01 June 2011 @ 02:04 pm
Never seem to get around to posting on this. Since my last entry have returned home from Iraq in March of 2008. I came home only to have my spouse die of colon and metastatic lung cancer.
Remember holding his hands in the hospital not knowing if I could live on when he passed away and left me. This was in September of 2009 and now in June of 2011 I still miss him. I just can not seem to get past this fact.
In Second Life I have pulled out of Caledon, why? Because I never used the place and will not brown nose to some paid for noble rank.
Well that is my story like a stream flowing from my birthplace to the ocean. While crashing into rocks and other obstructions follow my path no matter how painful.
 
 
ranmatardis
30 November 2007 @ 01:34 pm
I had the honor to help send home a fallen warrior from my unit. He had so much to live for and was not here for much longer when stuck down.
My heart goes out to his family near Ft McCoy. I do not know what to say. He deserved to live more than me but look who lives on?
 
 
ranmatardis
17 November 2007 @ 01:46 pm
me  
I get to work tonight here in the land of tears.
Am beginning to level out more and more and I am no longer as afraid as before. Think my depression and anxiety attacks were behind my desire to die. I can see things much more clearly now and have so much to live for. There is so much good food and drink to consume. So many mountains and hills to climb and paths to walk, There is my civilian life which has gone a lot better than my military one.
I am cheering the Democrats on with their withholding the money for the war. The President has things reversed, giving him money leads to more suffering for the troops. The American people do not support his war. Hell he does not even enjoy the support of his own political party. He looks like he wants to drive his head through a concrete wall and the countries as well. Fight on dear Democratic Congressmen and women the Armed forces are behind you!
 
 
ranmatardis
11 November 2007 @ 06:20 pm
I have been allowed to return to duty after finishing the 3 day "restoration" program at the Combat Stress Clinic. Only a few people know why I was away from the unit. I hope this continues to be true.
They gave me back my automatic but took the firing pin out. I guess they do not trust me not to redecorate my room with grey matter. I am not sure what the future holds for me but am hopeful for a better tomorrow.
I feel so weak having admitted to having this problem. What do you think? I was surprised to find out that stress is having such an adverse affect on my health. Again am I weak or strong asking for help?
 
 
ranmatardis
09 November 2007 @ 06:16 pm
Put down on my sick leave that I was depressed. The health care professional asked me if I had though of sucide? Well I was dead beat tired from my shift and gave him an honest answer. Now I am in a residental program for 3 days set to get me refreshed to go back to the fight. I have gotten 2 days of really great sleep and do look a lot better. I am on a new antidepression medicine, not sure how this will affect things but my command is very understanding about my problems. I am not in a straight jacket or such all they did was take away my weapon, a pleasure to part company with it for a few days and am going through a bunch of classes.